What is going on lately? Like..seriously..everytime something goes good..it turns around and just...I don't know..I'm lost, and I'm confused over what's been going on lately. I've been helping people as much as I can..but..I need help too sometimes. I'm not trying to sound selfish, but..I've put a lot of energy into helping those closest to me, but I keep my problems to myself. The stuff I tell others isn't always the entire story, I just..I don't know what to do anymore.. I just..I don't know..what to tell people half the time, I know my friends worry about me, but I don't know what to say to them. I put all my energy into helping others...sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. I care deeply about my friends. I do all I can to help them, but, when it comes to me, I shove my problems down and keep up the happy-go-lucky act. I'm really not. I'm a depressed person in real life. My friends are more important than myself in my mind. I'm not important. my friends are.

I know this sounds like I don't care about myself....but that's not the case here..... It's just..I care about my friends more than anyone, they've been there for me when my parents weren't..They're important to me. Most of the time I say to myself "They don't need to hear my problems, they've got enough already." So, I keep silent, and help them, while forgetting about myself and my own problems. My friends are all I really have in this world, I'd be so sad if I lost any of them..


~sam20